Prayer of Laziness
Children run towards the road. I walk slowly behind them. I feel the danger, but not significant enough to run and stop them. Instead, I pray for God to protect them at that moment.
Now, at a spot above the lake, the children have moved far away from me. I prayed again. But after praying this time, I understood something. It's a prayer out of laziness. My conscience demands action, but I don't feel like running, stopping them, or shouting. So, internally, I pray. I console myself. I've reinterpreted this. I don't know if I'll manage to run and stop them the next time a similar situation arises. Probably not. But if I don't run, would I be able not to pray? Also, probably not.
So, what did I understand from all of this? Maybe I've slightly better understood what I do and why I do it.
By the way, this reminds me of my student days. I prayed because I didn't want to prepare for exams.
It seems I've identified three types of prayer requests:
- I pray because I don't want to act.
- I pray and act.
- I pray when it's impossible to act.
How is it for you?